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World’s Strongest Man…as metaphor

23 June 2021

Metaphor: a figure of speech in which a word or phrase literally denoting one kind of object or idea is used in place of another to suggest a likeness or analogy between them. Merriam-Webster online.

I could not restrain myself from waxing philosophical about these games.

On the face of it, World’s Strongest Man is an annual competition where several really buff guys all try to excel in various events having to do with lifting, pushing, pulling and throwing heavy objects. The one who does the best earns the title of “World’s Strongest Man” for that year. They “represent” different countries, but this is not stressed, as most of them are from the U.S. The annual competition is also made into a series of TV episodes which in theory will be entertaining and help the sponsors get brand recognition for their products.

Beyond this, it should be noted that, though the competitors take it seriously, and fans all have their favorites, in the end it is not a matter of life and death who wins or loses, and if you were caught cheating in order to win, you would be thrown out. It’s a game in the long tradition of sport. It is expected to be played honestly and its purpose is primarily entertainment.

In these ways, it differs from some other games, or contests, played in this universe. While in the context of Spirit, the elements of fair play and entertainment may still be present, in our context, the context of biology living on a frail planet, these same games become filled with deceit and dire, if not murderous, consequences.

This is a force universe

My teacher often mentions that this universe is ruled by the laws of force. To survive well as a spiritual being in this universe, or a group of beings, requires a proper balance of force and intelligence.

Thus a single tremendously powerful being can be defeated by a less powerful group of beings if they can outwit him.

And so a contest of strength correctly points out the importance of being able to muster sufficient physical force to deal with the situation you are facing. But it downplays the range of intelligence that can be brought to bear.

Thus a weak being, or a group of them, may acquire a weapon or organize a plan of attack that allows them to overwhelm a much stronger being who is acting stupidly. He may complain that they didn’t play fair. But in a universe ruled by force, “fairness” becomes a relative concept. If you are overwhelmed by an opponent, you may lose your right to complain that the rules were broken. In the end, your only sure defense is to be able to muster enough force and organization to keep you opponent at bay. The history of Earth is full of examples of individuals and whole peoples being overwhelmed unfairly by individuals or groups possessing superior strength or intelligence. In a universe of force, these “wrongs” can never be righted, through there may be a spiritual price to pay.

The ugliness of strength

It may occur to some that these strongmen, even though good musculature has a certain attractiveness, are not very pretty to look at. Writers and thinkers have been playing with this theme for a long time. I think of Beauty and the Beast as a very good example of a magical story that covers this topic. The beautiful woman – representing the nurturing side of life as well as the literal feminine – must be willing to get over her revulsion to the ugliness of male strength and what it can be used for (to kill game in a hunt, for example) in order to have the man as a “handsome” mate and friend. The man, in turn, feels obligated to give the woman beautiful gifts and a castle in order to convince her that he is worthy of her love.

This is also an issue for many of us individually. Many feel compelled to embrace vegetarianism for no more good reason than the ugliness connected with killing animals. It is also common practice for the woman to enhance her beauty with makeup or clothing, while men who pay too much attention to such things are considered “effeminate.”

The game of politics

On Earth at least, the game of politics – as opposed to sports – is considered to be one that will never be played fairly. “All is fair in love and war,” as they say.

Yet we often see sporting events – particularly those involving male strength – as metaphor for the game of politics. Were it so!

In some ways, the history of politics on Earth – and in this universe – has been a history of attempts – mostly failed attempts – to bring rules to the game that will somehow stand as unbreakable. But in a universe ruled by force, a superior force combined with intelligence can always take over the game and set new rules. We have seen this happen over and over again.

To extend your credulity overmuch, I offer you the example of The Domain. This group has been one of the oldest and most powerful groups in this universe for a very long time. One reason for their power is their superior intelligence in the subject of organization. To quote from Alien Interview:

“As I mentioned, there is a very highly regimented and fixed hierarchy or “class system” for all IS-BEs (Immortal Spiritual Beings) throughout the “Old Empire”, and The Domain, as follows:

“The highest class are “free” IS-BEs. That is, they are not restricted to the use of any type of body and may come and go at will, provided that they do not destroy or interfere with the social, economic or political structure.

“Below this class are many strata of “limited” IS-BEs who may or may not use a body from time to time. Limitations are imposed on each IS-BE regarding range of power, ability and mobility they can exercise.

“Below these are the “doll body” classes, to which I belong. Nearly all space officers and crew members of space craft are required to travel through intergalactic space. Therefore, they are each equipped with a body manufactured from light weight, durable materials. Various body types have been designed to facilitate specialized functions. Some bodies have accessories, such as interchangeable tools or apparatus for activities such as maintenance, mining, chemical management, navigation, and so forth. There are many gradations of this body type which also serve as an “insignia” of rank.

“Below these are the soldier class. The soldiers are equipped with a myriad of weapons, and specialized armaments designed to detect, combat and overwhelm any imaginable foe. Some soldiers are issued mechanical bodies. Most soldiers are merely remote controlled robots with no class designation.

“The lower classes are limited to “flesh bodies”. Of course, it is not possible for these to travel through space for obvious reasons. Fundamentally, flesh bodies are far too fragile to endure the stresses of gravity, temperature extremes, radiation exposure, atmospheric chemicals and the vacuum of space. There are also the obvious logistical inconveniences of food, defecation, sleep, atmospheric elements, and air pressure required by flesh bodies, that doll bodies do not require.”

This quote does not mention the importance of free beings in this structure, as today there are few, if any, left. It mentions their power (strength) only indirectly “… provided that they do not destroy or interfere with the social, economic or political structure.” Free beings, in fact, did have the power to do such things, and that’s why most if not all of them ended up being “limited” in important ways. Apparently free beings were not considered trustworthy, though I can think of many less honorable reasons why they may have been wiped out. But the result of this is that The Domain is now struggling a bit, as free beings were an important part of their success. Needless to say, the other forces in this universe, and particularly the remnants of the Old Empire (mostly Reptilians) also developed ways to limit or trap free beings. So whether the loss of all free beings was the fault of The Domain itself, or pushed along by the efforts of their competitors, the result has been bad for everyone involved. Because they had no way to “unlimit” beings after they were limited. They had no way to reverse the process, to restore, revive, or salvage a crippled free being to a state of perfect health and freedom. The big secret of our planet is that this has been accomplished here. Hubbard (a former operative in The Domain) figured out how to do this. And my group is in the process of making 10,000 free beings on Earth. This promises to be the start of a universal salvage operation, assuming we are able to complete this work before Earth is crippled or destroyed.

The promise of the free being

If we can succeed in restoring some beings to a free state, complete with the wisdom gained during their long descent into the relative slavery of flesh and blood, the future holds great promise.

Hubbard called this promise the New Civilization.

The new free beings will be able to generate the force (strength) necessary to protect planets and societies from undue attack. Free from such attacks, those societies can concentrate on reviving even more beings to a fully free state. These societies will operate on the intelligence gained from billions of years of living experience, and will be able to honestly work for and defend the cause of spiritual freedom in this universe. Spiritual freedom alone can combine the physical strength and spiritual intelligence needed to maintain a state of exhilarating playfulness in this universe, a state only dreamed of up til now, and only briefly, if ever, previously attained.

Like the human child, the years of carefree fun have always been too short. Too often cut off early in life by the mistreatment of some suffering adult, or a war, or a famine, or some criminal act. And if none of those misfortunes befell the child, then certainly puberty and the emotional pressures surrounding sex would end the fun soon enough, even if seeming to replace it with a new form of fun. Sex is a highly degraded form of “fun” compared to what is possible to experience in a freer state.

Think of, for example, how amazing a contest for the “Universe’s Strongest Man” could be! Instead of playing with little stone balls in a park in Sacramento, they could play with planets or stars (not populated ones!) in a playground as big as a galaxy! All brought to the comfort of your home by universal TV. Or leave your body and go out to watch the games in person!


4 April 2021

I have never written on this subject before, as I am not religiously trained. But the data and attention on this subject kept piling up, to the point where I feel that I should write about it.


madonna nursing
Amazing old painting by an unknown artist. Note all the symbolic energy radiating off the pair.

Easter celebrates the last day in a series of events related in various biblical stories. It is connected with the Jewish tradition of Passover, as these events are said to have occurred during the Jewish Passover.

Passover celebrates part of the Exodus story, which includes the parting of the Red Sea and other miraculous occurrences.

On the day we celebrate as Easter it is said that Jesus arose from death. This includes his ascent into Heaven.

As most are probably aware, Jesus had been killed by the Romans as a favor to various Jewish leaders who felt threatened by his activities. Tradition holds that he was nailed to a cross, where he died with the assistance of a Roman soldier who cut him with a lance.

It is a very emotional story, and full of the gruesomeness that we associate with the life and politics of those times. It is the foundational story on which Christianity as a redemptive faith is based.

Recent mentions – Dave Rubin

Dave Rubin is a conservative-leaning liberal from New York who currently lives in Los Angeles and has made a name for himself doing political commentary and interviews mostly as video podcasts.

In recognition of Easter, Dave invited a local Rabbi and a local Priest to come on the show and talk about these religious traditions in particular and also the larger problems that religion faces in the form of secular opposition such as that embodied in the “public health” mandates which closed many churches for an extended period of time.

Their discussion centered on the secular attack on religion and their attempts to maintain a balance in their congregations between the desire for a spiritual connection and concerns for personal and public health and safety. I have dealt with these issues elsewhere on this blog.

There is wide agreement among conservatives and religious people that the church closures violated the First Amendment and were unwarranted in the face of all evidence and rationality. I agree with this view.

Discussions with Christian believers

I often walk down to Old Sacramento on Saturdays, and there I meet people who wish to talk with passers by about Christianity. I have come to be well-acquainted George, his wife, and their beautiful black Lab. Yesterday I was met by Robert and his brother and we had a long discussion about faith and eternity.

Christians are sold on the idea that they visit Earth only once, where they are normally presented with numerous opportunities to follow The Lord. I told him of my understanding that people return to Earth numerous times. As this truth is blocked using various memory loss technologies, most consider it only a belief. This includes most Christians. I of course disagree with this and feel that the evidence for this truth is powerful enough to make it a basic fact of life.

The story of the crucifixion and resurrection is very important to Christians. Because of the numerous written accounts, they are convinced that these events actually did occur more or less as related in the Bible, and that we should assign to these events the significance that Jesus asked us to assign to them. I disagree with this, but not strenuously. It is a story that seems to have done some good over the centuries, and one I would not wish to pull out from underneath the people of Earth, like some old dirty rug, without a better story that might serve a similar purpose.

Without the technology of Confession as practiced in Scientology, our trespasses against societal agreements, as well as our own sense of personal integrity, can weigh heavily upon us. And this can be compounded by similar unresolved actions in our more distant past (past lives). This sense of guilt (that we are all “sinners”) can then be used by the unscrupulous to lead us to do things that further weaken our position in life. Christian teaching is one attempt to unburden us from this guilt so that we may live a free and proud life, even though we know we have done wrong. I don’t see this approach as very effective. I think Scientology works much better.

Christianity is influenced by Buddhist teachings on the subject of right action. Compassion and charity are seen as essential parts of life for believers. This opens the door, however, to tolerating wrong action in others. This is an essential paradox of human life that each belief system handles in its own way. Even the Scientology ethics methods, which includes the assignment of conditions and so forth, are not always easy to follow or obvious in their application.

Data obtained from Remote Viewing

Courtney Brown (Farsight Institute) and his remote viewers have addressed some of the incidents connected with Easter and the Exodus and have uncovered data which I consider significant.

For the full story, you can check out their older projects and trailers for their newer projects on YouTube.

But in a nutshell, when it comes to the Crucifixion, it appears that what is reported in the Bible is not totally accurate.

Jesus, it appears, had “heavenly” (ET) assistance and was working on a plan for Earth that his people hoped would be successful. They wanted to install a newer religious institution to replace the ones in that area (Judaism? Or was the Roman system more likely the target?) and this would require some major miraculous events that would get everyone fired up. All the Disciples were apparently in on the fibs surrounding the crucifixion and resurrection. It was the job of Judas to find someone who looked like Jesus who could be presented to the Romans for them to execute. A local religious fanatic was chosen (we have had problems with religious fanatics ever since!) and it was he who was killed by the Romans. Judas had to be accused of betraying Christ in order for the story to work, which apparently he gladly agreed to. The real Christ meanwhile retreated to a somewhat remote location, and over the next few days, the rest of the story, with some ET assistance apparently, was carried out. I’m not sure Jesus was literally pulled up into a space ship, but that is what the findings imply. All the Disciples then agreed to go out and promulgate the story as it exists in the Bible today. A small fib, they figured, was justified to forward their cause and claim the final “miracle” of Jesus’ life.

Courtney’s viewers later did projects on the parting of the Red Sea and on Moses. It seems these were also ET-assisted events. The bottom line is that ETs were significantly involved in the development of the Judeo-Christian stories as told in the Old and New Testaments. This is supported by Hubbard’s findings that religious belief was an important part of the control mechanisms put in place in other civilizations preceding those of Earth. If anything, they play a more important role out there, as we on Earth are the outcasts, less willing to accept these teachings and stories.

Conflicts of interest

This section is not meant to address the issues mentioned above.

But what I have written certainly paints a picture of confusion for all of us living here. And it does not solve through simple disbelief.

And so it goes with my attempts to find friendship.

Who is most likely to pursue a relationship with me? Someone who sees me as relatively safe, kind, and tolerant, and who needs that because of previous experiences. So, who has reached for me the hardest? Two woman who are overweight and emotionally compromised.

They have both had children with husbands who eventually left them. Why those separations or divorces occurred is lost in the mists of time. But what happened subsequently was similar for both women. They fell in love with men with major emotional and health problems. In one case, this eventually led to an eviction and subsequent homelessness for over a year. In the other case, the man died one night of complications from a recent illness, even as she struggled to revive him.

Both of these women desperately want and need a stable partner, but are very unlikely to find him because they themselves are in such bad shape. I am sure this is the sad story of many women – and men – as they lived through the hopefulness of youth only to find their training and personality failing them as they grew older.

What am I to do with such people? I am no messiah! And there is no system currently present that is fully equipped to help these women live out the later years of their lives with some dignity and happiness. The “mental health” system has totally failed us. It is based on a “psychology” more perverse than any religious story ever written, resulting in practices that could easily be seen as the work of the Devil himself.

The more society believes in this secular form of “redemption,” the more it caves in on itself. I have referred both these women to Scientology. But one is a TV addict and barely literate. And the other has been thoroughly seduced by the new secular “religion” that involves psychology, molecular biology, genetics and drugs. If either of them pulls through into a better place, it will truly be a miracle.

And so goes the planet…

Highly Sensitive People

16 December 2020

Elaine Aron’s book The Highly Sensitive Person was published in 1996.

In this book she introduced the idea that a certain bundle of personality traits seemed to express themselves all together in about 20% of the population. She named this bundle of traits the Highly Sensitive Person, or HSP. Her research indicated that these traits tended to express themselves in the presence of a heightened level of Sensory Processing Sensitivity, a quality of the central nervous system. This suggests that this type of personality could be a result of biological or genetic factors.

My training de-emphasizes the importance of genetics and biology in human personality and even body health and functioning. We deem Spirit to be the supreme arbiter in all such matters, as hidden as this connection may sometimes seem.

But I offer the following discussion as a bridge between students of Scientology and others who have been more classically trained. We need more bridges! Particularly in these times.

The HSP Craze

The HSP idea caught on quickly. Here was a set of personality traits, widely experienced by real people, that presented both benefits and risks yet was not considered a mental “disorder.” Here was a label we could embrace that was meaningful, with a minimum of negative connotations.

A lot of psychologists, therapists and “ordinary” people jumped on the HSP bandwagon, doing quite a lot of serious research on it, as well as writing a ton of popular articles. There are some internet personalities who have identified with the term, and it doesn’t seem to be going away any time soon.

While psychologists worry about those who would seek to identify as HSP just to avoid confronting real issues that they need to face, the rest of us are looking at how we could use this concept to understand ourselves and others better, with the objective of a more harmonious coexistence.

Elena Herdieckerhoff

Elena Herdieckerhoff is one such person. Per her bio, she didn’t really take up the HSP banner until 2014, around the age of 25. Elena is also a Reiki Master and lifelong spiritual seeker. She is, at least loosely, a follower of the Yogananda approach to life, which centers around a deep meditation experience.

As of this date, her TED talk on this subject, given in Paris in 2016, has received 3,432,392 views and garnered over 7,500 comments. It is a good talk. I viewed it for the first time yesterday, and I can use it as a sort of personal benchmark for what it means to be an HSP. The specific experiences she mentions in her talk include:

  1. Living with all of your senses on high alert.
  2. A vivid inner world where all your emotions are magnified.
  3. You care beyond reason and empathize without limits.
  4. Intensely over-active mind impossible to switch off, often leading to insomnia.
  5. Unable to watch scary or violent movies without getting haunted by those images.
  6. Too picky about bed quality and other fine points of living.
  7. Easily overloaded by sensory inputs for noise, scents, light and motion. And also by others’ emotions.

Do these traits remind you of anyone you know?

As she relates in her talk, “the gifts of sensitivity slowly crept up on me.” She lists some of them:

  1. Easily connect with others deeply.
  2. Strong and guiding intuition.
  3. Ability to deeply analyze situations.
  4. Strong empathetic ability.
  5. Heightened awareness of details (subtleties) in the environment.

Elena then goes on to try to handle the “bad press” received by this craze. For example, 30% of HSPs are extroverts, counter to what most might expect. The HSP also knows no gender bias, while popular culture tends to see these traits as feminine.

She then insists that HSPs expect no extra hand holding from society, nor are they members of some secret fraternal society! She goes on to educate the audience on how to handle HSPs better.

  1. Don’t complain to them in the hope that they will change. Most HSPs are perfectly happy to be so and would have a difficult time being otherwise.
  2. Treat their traits as special abilities. They can be allies in campaigns aimed at relieving any kind of suffering.

She ends by making the point that we could all benefit by valuing what has come to be known as “sensitivity.” Perhaps this term was originally invented to denigrate those who exhibited too much human virtue, as these are potent enemies of criminal behaviors. She invites teachers and business managers in particular to find a place in their hearts and in their classrooms and offices for sensitive people.

Me and my friend

When my friend once told me that she needed some “alone time” and then avoided meeting with me for over a week, I knew that I had run into something that I was not totally familiar with.

This woman did not fit well into any of the usual boxes I was trained to put people into. And on top of that, my own reaction to her was totally over the top. What the hell was going on?

This concept of the highly sensitive person, which I just yesterday ran into for the first time, provides a way – however theoretically imperfect – to better understand her, myself, and – us.

Has she exhibited many of these traits in the short time I have known her? Yes!

Have I exhibited many of these traits (but in different proportions) in the long time I have known myself? Yes!

Then perhaps this helps to explain some of the emotionality and confusion I have experienced in this friendship, as well as in my entire lifetime. At least the concept can possibly serve as a way to help me explain myself to other people.

For the sake of completeness, I will go over the list of traits above as they apply to me:

  1. Living with all of your senses on high alert. I have never been particularly aware of this. I don’t think this is a major situation for me.
  2. A vivid inner world where all your emotions are magnified. No fucking kidding!!!
  3. You care beyond reason and empathize without limits. This trait is modified by my training and my gender. I do not experience this as strongly as I have seen my friend experience it.
  4. Intensely over-active mind impossible to switch off, often leading to insomnia. Like, absolutely yes, for my entire adult life!!!
  5. Unable to watch scary or violent movies without getting haunted by those images. This is true for me. I still can muster up some horrifying images I have seen in movies. I will go to bed after such a movie and worry about the characters, or have scary dreams.
  6. Too picky about bed quality and other fine points of living. I have my own ways of being picky, but I think I have been trained out of this for the most part. I know, though, that I have an extremely strong attraction to feminine beauty, while also being a careful inspector of faces, physiques, belly buttons, hair.
  7. Easily overloaded by sensory inputs for noise, scents, light and motion. And also by others’ emotions. This is a reiteration of item 1) with emotions added in. I do have an acquired dislike for perfumes.


I pick up others’ emotions and am very interested in them. I tend to disregard the possibility that not everyone does this the way I do. This trait has made it very difficult for me regarding my friend, as she has had a very rough time emotionally and this has a lot of meaning for me. But she has chosen to process much of her experience using “alone time” when I would prefer to use quiet conversation, thus benefiting from some physical contact and relieving my extreme isolation. This has been one of the biggest sources of stress for me in this friendship.

I recall describing my childhood friendship with Linda to a lady who was working here for a while as a social worker. She had a hard time coming to terms with the possibility that a little boy could have such strong feelings for a girl. She felt a desire to help me find Linda again so that I could apologize for leaving her without saying goodbye. Almost 60 years later, I still wish I could!

Cycles of Action, Cycles of Communication

15 December 2020

The basic cycle of action has three parts: Start – Change – Stop.

One makes a cup of coffee, one drinks the cup of coffee, the cup becomes empty.

The artist gets an idea for a painting, she paints the painting, the painting is sold.

A President gets sworn into office, he or she serves, then the President leaves office and a new one arrives.


It can be observed that once a cycle is started, a certain amount of attention will remain on it until it is completed. After an action is completed, that attention is freed up and can be used in some other way.

Incomplete cycles of action can accumulate or “stick” one’s attention on past times when one was waiting for completion or hoping to complete the cycle.


Communication can be considered to be a specialized cycle of action. Because communication is used specifically to accomplish understanding between two beings, it has extra elements relating to the beings and the information being communicated. But other than that, it takes the same basic form. A person starts talking (texting, etc.), continues talking and then stops talking, then the receipt of that message is acknowledged.

An incomplete cycle of communication can occur if the message gets interrupted, or if there is no reply or acknowledgement.

People can accumulate stuck attention on incomplete cycles of communication. Did they get my message? Did they understand it? Did it upset them? Or did they simply step away from their communication device to do something else?

Communication Lag

The actual time between when a message is sent and when it is answered is referred to as a communication (comm) lag. Live communication between happy people generally involves very short comm lags. But if the message happens to involve something that one of them has trouble with, this may result in a large lag, or no answer at all.

In live communication, comm lag serves as a measure of the sanity of the people involved in the communication. It indicates how much “mental machinery” they have created to process the messages they receive from others. The more mental machinery you use without being aware of it, the less sane you are.


Text messaging over computer networks is now a common mode of communicating. I have experienced text messaging a lot in the past few weeks.

Communication lags can also occur in email, but they are more expected, as the medium is not designed to support live communication.

Recently I opened a chat window on a website I was visiting because I had a question that the website wasn’t answering. The lady wanted to call me and talk to me in person, so I gave her my number. She texted that she would call me “shortly.” 30 minutes later she called. No apology or explanation. My life had been on hold for an entire half hour waiting for a call to arrive “shortly.”

I have been involved in several “conversations” that included gaps of anywhere from a few minutes to several hours between my text and her reply. I get the impression that this is considered “normal.” This isn’t normal!

Attention that should be free for other activities can get stuck on a communication cycle for minutes or hours due to the failure of one or both parties to keep their comm lags as short as possible. Even answers like “please don’t ask me that!” “that’s rude” or “no” would be better than leaving the comm cycle for minutes or hours with no reply to the last message.

NOTE: Apparently the accepted think on the internet is that a “real” conversation is by voice. A text chat is not considered the same as real dialog. Thus, I suggest that if there could be any confusion about this, a qualifier be included in the message stating the expectation. Both parties should get each other’s agreement about how to treat a particular chat session.

Apparently no one these days is taught that the proper way to handle a text chat if you cannot stay focused on it is to notify your friend that you are unable to complete the conversation right now and will have to continue it later. Likewise, if you feel the topic is not appropriate for a text chat, you should respond immediately stating that.

If my own experience is any indication, lack of awareness of the above communication basics could be contributing materially to societal destruction. Comm lags as long as those I have recently experienced are enough to drive people crazy!

Don’t contribute to this hysteria! Observe good manners and good sense in your text communications!

  1. Always acknowledge or answer a text as soon as you receive it, or become aware of it.
  2. If the comm cycle is serious, treat it that way. Put your full attention on it until it’s over.
  3. If you are pulled out of the cycle by something happening in your environment, let the other person know right away that you are unable to continue now and preferably why.
  4. If you find a text offensive, confusing or otherwise difficult, say that right away and give the other person a chance to correct it. Maybe it was just a typo!
  5. Realize that it is more normal to carry on a real conversation by voice or in person. Texting on the phone is a cool way to be in communication with someone without the people around you becoming entirely aware of what you are doing or saying. Texting gives you the chance to put your thoughts into words before you say them – to filter yourself. But don’t let that be an excuse to introduce massive comm lags into a conversation. All that does is confuse and upset the other person and contribute to mass hysteria.

Help save the planet! Practice sane communication!

Old Issues – New Issues

14 December 2020

The Process

I go lie down in bed. If there’s something on my mind that’s a little deeper, it will tend to bubble up. I’ll get emotional about it.

I might be able to tell that it is really meaningful.

If it seems really meaningful I’ll get up and write about it or do something about it.

This has happened two or three times already this evening.

This isn’t normal. It’s my current process for handling an extra heavy emotional load.

If this in TMI for you, you are welcome to just skip it.

Old Issues

Tonight I recognized some old issues that I was sort of pushing off on my friend but that – surprise! – I had never really handled myself.

Decide what you want to do!

A situation comes up. It was probably an unexpected situation. And now you’ve got to decide what to do about it. And maybe you work it out all by yourself or maybe you talk to someone close (or not so close?) about it. And the result is supposed to be that you decide what to do. If you don’t decide someone else will decide for you, right? Wouldn’t you rather stay in control of your life and make your own decisions?

And this process is supposed to result in a goal and a plan of action. I’ve done this lots of times for more minor actions. Like moving back to California (twice). Like finding a job. Like getting products at work.

But to decide this for all aspects of your life over a short space of time? That’s more of a challenge.

Aren’t you supposed to help me with this?

When you are young and still trying to cope with your current life and all the changes that have happened since the last time you were a kid (particularly because you probably can’t even remember the last time) you kind of expect that maybe an adult (like your parent?) would sit down with you and help you to sort stuff out.

How many of you out there have gone through such a process with a parent? Or maybe a teacher or a mentor or even a counselor? I’d like to hear from you all about your experiences!

I’m fond of saying that my parents weren’t exactly there for me, but they aren’t here to defend themselves now, so suffice it to say that I never really did this with either my dad or my mom while I was growing up with them, but a little more with my mom after I left home.

When you are older, who replaces your parents when you need to get an exterior look at something that is making you feel very weak and little? The most obvious answer is your spouse. But these days, approximately half of all U.S. adults live as singles. Who do those people turn to when they need to get some perspective on their lives?

Why won’t you let me help you?

A friend of mine who I should probably consider a dear friend even though we don’t know each other that well was willing to help me with this recently. She’s my age, but more learned and more emotionally mature. She came up with the observation that this all centers around the subject of help. She suggested that I review some materials on the subject, which I fortunately have copies of. I have been reviewing those materials.

Help is a very interesting subject! It’s a very emotional subject because it is very very basic in this world. When the worms reproduce in the soil underneath a lawn, then a robin comes along one day and spots one and pulls it out and eats it, was that not a case of the worm helping the robin? Might it even be true that in some way the robin helped the worm by allowing it to fulfill its purpose of being food for higher life forms? The argument could be made. So help isn’t necessarily all sweetness and light, is it?

Way back when we were all bodyless spiritual beings – I’m talking way way back – we really didn’t need that much help from each other. But, we wanted to play together (the analogy with children at play only stretches so far). One being might make some creation and throw it in the direction of another being to see how they would react. Now, if the second being just ignored the “pass” (seeing a sexual connection here? That’s OK…) the first being would not consider that helpful. He might get pissed off at the second being and try to entrap him with flaming plasma or something (I just made that up). On the other hand, if the second being responded by sending a creation of his back in the direction of the first being, that might be considered helpful. They might even get together and have a relationship!

Other responses might also be considered helpful. The second being could blow up the first being’s creation. Or he could change its color and throw it back. You can see how eventually some sort of game could develop with “rules” about responses that were helpful versus ones that weren’t. It would all be totally subjective, but it would be a game. They are a couple of immortal spiritual beings! They don’t really need any “help.”

Fast forward billions of years, closer to present time. We’ve all become involved with biology. The rules of the “game” (if you can still call it that) are a little more obvious. And the actions involved are a little more…graphic, I guess you could say. Feeding someone is considered helpful. So a farmer helps others by feeding them. And they help him by buying the food instead of stealing it, so he can afford to replant each year and also feed his own family. A mother feeds her baby my nursing him and so on. Pretty obvious.

But the problem of failed help can come up. The farmer’s crop fails. The mother’s milk dries up. Oh no! Everyone has their stable data upset! How will they react? The situation suddenly becomes new and confusing. The baby could cry. The little boy, hungry, could get angry at not being fed and run away from home. The people who depended on the farmer could riot and burn down the farmer’s house. Failed help, then, can result in the person who expected that he could help finding himself resenting those he hoped to help. He failed to help so now he hates the objects of his help? Sounds nutty, but that’s life for you.

And so, all sorts of strange attitudes towards help can pop up and cripple individuals and their groups. A person can reject help even though he obviously needs some. A person could refuse to help another even though he could obviously provide some. Oh my goodness what a sad situation!

My family and my relationships…

And so it was that, though I expected help from my parents, it seldom arrived. They provided the most basic help: food, clothing, shelter, health care. That might be good enough for a farm animal, but that’s not quite going to cut it for a human boy trying to grow up into a man. There were obvious attempts to provide educational opportunities and fun family activities. The help landscape was not a desert, but more like a savanna when I had hoped for a forest.

And so I learned to not ask for help, and to figure out my issues by myself. This could be considered laudable in some respects, but it is missing at least one important ingredient: Without a second terminal in the picture, it becomes extremely difficult to have enough space to be truly sane and inventive. Solutions created in a space that’s too small and cramped will result in solutions that, frankly, are a bit half-assed. This, unfortunately, characterized many of my solutions to many of the situations I ran into growing up. The first big one being the loss of my friends, including my dear girlfriend Linda, when my family moved from California to Michigan.

What am I supposed to do?

When I was nine and living in the Bay Area, my answer would have been: Grow up, go to college, marry Linda, raise a family and live a “normal” life.

By the time I was about 15 the plan looked more like this: Don’t grow up – be an irresponsible playboy for the rest of my life, don’t go to college, follow my passions instead of putting common sense first and live an “abnormal” life.

By the time I was 25, I had finally found someone (Suzy, a child psychologist) who was willing to be a second terminal for me so I could straighten some of this shit out. With her help, I learned to:

  1. Dress like an adult.
  2. Find enjoyable play activities with other adults.
  3. Have adult girlfriends.

However, we never worked out college, my passions, or my determination to swim against the prevailing current. Perhaps this was just as well. I ended up learning a lot from “growing up” but I also learned a lot from “being different.”

However, there was a crucial skill and awareness I did not acquire: How to provide myself with one or more stable terminals who I could work with to create my future. This was especially critical because I no longer envisioned a mainstream future for myself. Some would argue this was a mistake. It meant that people, particularly women, who could fill this need would be few and far between. And that my friends, is an understatement in describing what I experienced!

But wait – so, what is it that I’m really supposed to do?

In a nutshell, I walked into adult life with a fragmented and incomplete vision of my own future, largely manufactured by myself without any direct consultation with another person.

Would I eventually work in the arts, as I had envisioned when I was 15? Would I create a space for children to learn in a more hands-on, trial-and-error (sometimes known as “heuristic”) fashion, the way I had learned so many things? Could I create an organization that would promote group dancing as an ideal way to attain physical (and mental) health? Could I come up to the level where I would be able to train and organize musicians, technicians, and other personnel to put on dance-exercise events and create some sort of enterprise that could be economically viable?

The above was one version of what I hoped to be doing for the rest of my life. It didn’t exactly turn out that way, but that’s not the point of this article.

Can I help her master a situation that I would have been unable to master when I was her age?

I find myself associated with a woman who is about as old as I was then. Her situation is in some ways much more complex and brutal than anything I ever experienced. It, in fact, comes very close to being overwhelming for both of us. It is a situation the likes of which I never imagined getting this close to in my lifetime. This kind of thing never happened to “nice college-educated people.” Yet it is happening to her, and similar things are happening to many other women (and men) in her age group.

An aside: I should have seen it coming.

I should have expected the Big Bad Asses to pull a bait-and-switch scheme on the entire planet to sell it on slavery. I should have expected them to come up with something really scary like a “new” virus (that really isn’t much worse than all the “old” ones we’ve already been through). The evolution was choreographed quite masterfully. And we are at a point – right now – where they seem to be on the verge of success.

I should have expected this.

I knew there were a bunch of guys out there who wanted to enslave the planet and needed to cripple the United States – the planet’s biggest defender of basic human freedoms – to do it. I knew these guys had total control of the mainstream media outlets, so could orchestrate a multi-faceted propaganda campaign that would leave few stones unturned. I knew they had the doctors in their pockets. I didn’t know the new Tech companies would be so compliant, but should have guessed. And so it happened!


Meanwhile, young adults – boys in particular – were being crippled by chemicals in their water, their food, their vaccines, and in drugs they were forced to take for their “mental illnesses.” On top of this a criminal philosophy which used to be known as Marxism, but it now known as Critical Theory, was sweeping through the humanities and being pushed in schools, businesses and the media. Its basic goal was to convince an entire generation that a criminal takeover was the only way to solve the persistent problems that we continued to create for ourselves – particularly in the “free” countries.

And so freedom itself came to have a bad name. Many of the younger generation don’t see any value in freedom. They are sold on the idea that freedom just results in crime. That it’s not something that is vital to our spiritual or mental health. And so a whole generation (almost) is fine with wearing masks that don’t work, participating in lockdowns that don’t work, and losing their jobs so they can’t work, just because the “experts” and the media insist that something really awful will happen if they don’t “follow the guidelines.” The only thing “awful” that would happen if we were much less compliant is that they would lose their power over us! Yet few see the pure evil in their actions and exhortations.

Very few people now are educated about what criminality is and what sociopathy is. A lot of people think these behaviors are just normal and that we have to live with them. If someone gets too scary, we can always send them to a psych hospital where they will be forcibly drugged and made compliant – or else. Actually, psych wards and prisons are used to identify persons who might be useful to the Big Bad Asses as terrorists, and such persons will often be released as “cured” so that they may perform this function. To keep the threat looking real, this is an important part of the plan.

Back to my friend.

This woman seems very intent on sorting out her own life. Perhaps she will find someone to help her. But as she is trained in the helping professions to assist others in situations similar to her own, perhaps she feels that she herself is the most qualified!

Yet she complains of feeling “introverted and exhausted.” Too little space! She needs another terminal to help her open up her space. Not to think for her! Just to help her find the room she needs to really think for herself.

When I was her age and in a similar but much less extreme situation, I failed to understand the true benefits that another terminal could have provided, and did not expect much from the one I did find, nor continue to look for a better replacement. And so I failed myself in many ways.

And now I offer myself to her as one who can truly help? Perhaps she has been wise to reject the offer. This is my great dilemma. Am I helping her enough, or failing her? It is indeed a great dilemma for me now.

You think I am making this all up?

This is not the time or place to sort out political theories. A girl is in trouble. Can I help her through it or can’t I? Either way, I will lose her – like successful parents lose their children – to the world of adult life. But perhaps if I continue to care about her, and am honest and real about it, and actually manage to provide her with information that will help her make better decisions, she won’t end up like I did, and will keep me a bit in her life.

Who wants to be 66, alone, and constantly emotionally needy? It is a form of torture I dearly wish now I could have avoided. Though my breadth of understanding of life somewhat makes up for the isolation, it seems now that I could have done so much better, been so much more effective.

If I had just had someone there to help me when I needed it the most.

If I had just been more willing to ask for and accept help from others.

If I had just been able to recognize when someone else needed help but didn’t know how to ask for it, and then helped them.

Well, I still have a little more time this life to get it right.

And yes, I guess I am making all this up.

It’s my life; what other choice do I have but to create it myself?


12 December 2020
She feels trapped, she is crying.
Yes, it looks like she’s all alone and can’t get out…

…But what lies beyond the space she is so focused on?


Could that be freedom?

Message to a fiercely independent person

11 December 2020

I wrote this on the 28th on November and it reflects my perceptions at that time. I hesitated to publish it then, thinking I had perhaps seriously misunderstood the whole situation. But on a re-reading, it still seems important. Though it is a bit overly personal, I publish it now as a complement to the piece I wrote earlier today.


Perhaps I perceive this incorrectly.

But I see a being struggling to resolve this thing under her own steam. A being, embattled and cornered, convinced she must stand alone, or fall.

Perhaps I am mistaken in this. Perhaps I see too much of myself in you.

This was my attitude, when I was young. And it was fierce enough to inhibit my parents from injecting themselves overmuch into my young life.

But on my 22nd birthday, when I finally decided to say goodbye and boarded a train West, an unsuspected but unshakable secret friend stood there waving goodbye. My mom.

And not long after I landed in the Bay Area and got settled in my new life, she began to write me letters. I would say that she wrote me once or twice every month, from that year until I lost her 15 years later.

And I answered those letters. I shared with her many of my adventures, big and small. And she shared with me bits of her life, more prosaic perhaps, but adventures nonetheless. She acknowledged my struggles and encouraged me in the pursuit of my dreams, as ill-formed or misguided as they might have seemed to her. She stood as my friend, as someone always there, a constant in my life.


What need, then, did I have for a wife? The connection did not even occur to me until we lost Mom in ‘92. My life then changed. But how exactly? I pondered for some months before it became clear to me. She was being my stable terminal. She was being the one that I was collaborating with to create my life. Like…a wife. It hadn’t occurred to me before.

And so I decided to seek out a woman to marry. This did not go well. It was an adventure for me, as I had never proposed to anyone before. But the only two I could find who appealed to me were an affable and petite woman 15 years my senior and a girl wise for her years, but 20 years my junior. The former had been through an awful experience with marriage and was not eager to play that game again. The latter stated simply: “You are old enough to be my father!”

Going it alone, again.

This, then, was the beginning of a long period in my life of single-handing (steering the ship without a crew on deck). It seemed familiar. Hadn’t I been through this before when I was younger? Yes, Mom had been there to take the temperatures and bandage the bruises, but we had never had an intimate conversation until after I left home! So back then, I thought I could survive somehow. But every time I met, then lost, some pleasant young woman likewise seeking friendship, my heart twinged. I was not giving the situation enough skilled attention. Indeed, perhaps, I was incapable of doing so.

And then you came along. It began as had other acquaintances, friendly but a bit offhand. It then took a turn beyond the limits I was used to in this life. You were, suddenly, no longer married; and sharing some of that hardship with me. You, too, had lost your stable terminal. We were “in the same boat” so to speak. But we both had other friends – and you family – available for comfort and support, or so this is what I perceived.


But new disasters struck and those we thought would stand by us became concerned with their own problems. We were now really alone. The disasters had even successfully separated us from each other.

It was only with considerable effort and many emotional days and nights that I found a way to reconnect. And though you have told me some of what you have been through, I doubt I can fully appreciate what you experienced. I was confused: You still had your parents, your sisters and brothers, and your own two sons. But still you spoke of enormous emotional pain. I, meanwhile, was down to nobody but Facebook friends and a few church staff members randomly contacting me. I was crying almost every day and night.

Is friendship worth it?

So: Am I perceiving this correctly? Are there still matters you would prefer to handle by yourself? Or is my own longing for touch causing me to hallucinate?

Yes, solitude has its place. But how could we ask for more solitude than what has been demanded of us in recent months? We have a chance, perhaps quite brief, to make ourselves available to each other. Let us take advantage of it!

In the life stories I have been reading, our heroine runs into this problem all the time. Her husbands don’t love her. She becomes estranged from the people she does love. Her stable terminal is not her spouse, but her brother, her father, her mother, or some spiritual adept who seems to know when she really needs help and appears out of nowhere to be of assistance.

I wish I could offer you that much! But even still, why not work together while we have the chance? It can’t last forever, but perhaps it doesn’t need to. Perhaps we can help each other grow out of needing each other. After all, I have but 20 years, more or less, ahead of me, and you may well have sixty or more. And yet we both need help right now and can at least do something for each other that may lead to greater stability in the future.

What do you think?

My Girlfriend Hat

11 December 2020

In our organizing technology we have things known as “hats.”

Hats are the standard positions, or jobs, in any group. You can even have hats in a marriage (husband, wife, child) or a friendship. When a person thoroughly (or not) documents what they do on their job, that document is called a “hat write-up” or just “hat.”

The nice thing about having this write-up is that you can put a new person on a job and have some hope that they will be able to do the same or better work than the last guy did, because they have all the instructions written up for them. This is key for handling the fact that people come and go. They get born and they die. They have to move somewhere else. They go out-ethics and have to be fired, or they get driven off their job by someone who is envious of them.

For all those reasons and more, the personnel at a company, or in your life, can change. And if you have hat write-ups for the new people, you have half a chance of rebuilding after such a change.

This, then, if my attempt to do a write-up for the “hat” of being my girlfriend. Now, this is admittedly a little tongue-in-cheek, because, after all, “girlfriend” is not normally considered a “job.” But it can be considered that way, and possibly should be.

I am writing this as a way to collect my thoughts about this, as well as in an attempt to guard myself against the fact that the personnel in my life have changed many times and will continue to do so. When you begin to look at life experience in terms of multiple lifetimes, then you see how definitely true it is that personnel change! But that’s not really the point here. Although you can stabilize a single lifetime by getting married, staying with a particular company, or whatever, that’s often not the way it works out. And certainly that’s not the way it worked out for me.

Though I will use guidelines from our organizing technology in writing this, it is not intended to be a comprehensive “hat write-up” or even that serious. After all, I’ve never tried doing this before! And beyond that, this is only MY idea of what SHE should do! To be complete this write-up would require input from my actual present and past girlfriends. And that is (sadly) lacking.


The purpose of a girlfriend (or any friend, really) is to provide a boy or man with a stable terminal (a being who can hold its position) who he can team up with to help him make his dreams come true. These dreams might include, but are not limited to, a marriage and a family. They may have to do with a production activity or a series of personal experiences.

Relative Position

The girlfriend should consider herself on an equal footing with her partner. In other words, he is wearing the same hat for her that she is wearing for him. They are a team cooperating with each other to create experiences that both of them find desirable.

Basic how-to of being a girlfriend

Each couple is different. It is assumed that they are together because they share something in common. This shared reality could could be some high-minded goal or some present-time circumstance. They might both like to do certain things or might share certain skills. On the other hand, they might discover that their different skill sets complement each other.

So, the details of what is done and how depends on that particular friendship. This write-up can only give general guidelines.

1. Think of yourself as an auditor (a being who can provide another with therapeutic help) for your friend. Ideally this is reciprocal. Attempt to follow the Auditor’s Code in dealing with your friend. You are there to provide support, not criticism. You are there to provide love and friendship in a world where hate and enemies are all too common.

2. Stay in very good communication. This is your primary role. You are there so he doesn’t have to work out everything by himself, so that he has someone to “bounce ideas off of” and try things out with. He may go out to “do battle” on his own, but when he returns home, be there to go over what happened, to console him if he got hurt, and to help him work out how to do better next time. If he sends you a message over long distance lines (like a phone), answer back as soon as you can. This could save much grief if the message is urgent and is a big factor in the quality of the communication experience.

3. Be willing to talk with him about anything. While the majority of your interactions may concern production (if he has a job or business) or emotional support (if that is the primary focus of the relationship), if something else comes up that is “way out in left field” stay willing to be engaged, to learn more about it with him, to tackle it and understand it with him. After all, there are eight dynamics, and any one of them can impinge on a person’s life and present problems that require study and discussion to work through.

4. Help him find pleasure. As “the woman in his life” (even if it is only temporary and you aren’t married) he is likely depending on you to some degree for succor (assistance in time of need or distress). This is something you should be able to do for each other. This doesn’t necessarily mean sex, even if you are both capable of it and desire it. Pleasure comes in many forms! Sitting together in a warm room, lots of hugs, sharing a great meal together, holding hands. Pleasure is the body’s signal to the being that he is doing something right, something pro-survival. Pain is the body’s signal to the being that he is doing something wrong or harmful. With pleasure comes the willingness of the body to let the being stay in control. With pain comes an impulse from the body to take over control in order to protect itself. Just about anything a being finds pleasurable has been found to be therapeutic, regardless of any moral teachings to the contrary. Splurge on this if you can. Don’t worry about it if you give more than you get back. If you do so when your friend is most in need, you may be pleasantly surprised if, later, you become the needy one.

5. Don’t keep secrets from him; be as honest with him as you possibly can. In the perfect spiritual world, keeping secrets or “being catty” would be impossible because everyone can read each other’s thoughts. Until that day occurs, keeping secrets is part of the game of living and is involved in most games, especially those where the “stakes are high.” But don’t let your relationship become such a game. To the degree that you can be totally honest with each other, you, as a pair, can be a strong and ethical team that can achieve amazing things. Honesty gives you spiritual strength, even if you err and then have to admit it. Achieving this may involve unlearning some insidious social habits that have become commonplace in society today. Make the effort. You may need to apply the principles of integrity to your life in a way you’ve never done before. It is worth the temporary discomfort that this may cause. Being able to be totally honest and open with your friends will not only make you a better and more valuable friend, but will make you a better being.

6. Learn to tell him exactly what you want. It has been popular in life and relationships to leave some things to chance. While this can add interest to the games of life, it puts someone else in the driver’s seat of your life. Learn to be the driver; in the end this will work out better for everyone. This is an important factor in love and self-love. It is actually a higher and more exciting game to name exactly what product or effect you want to achieve, then see how close you can get to achieving that. Part of it is skill in using words or pictures to describe exactly what you want to achieve and communicating this to others. This would certainly include your partner! Though there might be some temporary excitement derived from forcing him to guess what you want him to do in, say, an intimate situation, it is actually more fun and more challenging to tell him exactly what you want. This one takes practice. Getting good at this, though, is well worth the effort.

7. Work to achieve a more balanced game with your partner in all of your activities. A game consists of freedoms, barriers and purposes. When freedoms and barriers are kept in balance, games become more fun to play. Be willing to go over all of these points with him for any activity you do together or hope to do together. Freedoms are expressed through creative imagination. Talk about all the possibilities! Barriers are usually expressed as rules or limits or boundaries. Don’t be afraid to define these in your relationship. They will add to pleasure, enjoyment (fun) and certainty. They help you build trust. Finally, it always helps to know what your purpose for doing something really is. The game of sexual contact would be different if you wanted to make a baby rather than just enjoy each other’s company. It’s OK for all this to be discussed and clear. It may seem somehow overly intellectual as you read it here, but if you can get used to thinking in these terms, it becomes natural and promotes happiness.


Any activity results in some sort of product. If you actually work out exactly what results you want to achieve with a relationship, the chances that you will attain those results go way up! Here’s how I would say it in a general sort of way:

The product of a girlfriend should be a boy or man who feels more stable, more certain of himself, and more able to make his dreams come true.

Even if the relationship is only temporary due to circumstances of life, while you are together it is well worth going for this. If anything, it will give you good practice for the next friend that you make. It might even result in a relationship that lasts longer than you originally expected. Can love exist across lifetimes? The answer turns out to be: Yes!


In organizations, statistics serve as indicators of how well the group is achieving its goals and purposes.

You might not see any point in keeping statistics for a relationship. But if you can work this out, it could open the door to building the relationship in ways you might not have imagined.

If you are working together to produce a better financial situation for both of you, you might want to keep track of your combined incomes, or net cash flows.

If you are working primarily towards emotional support, you might want to keep track of the number of times each week you do something together that you both enjoy.

It all depends on how much control over the situation you want to achieve. Statistics help you to become more causative in life. If this will only be seen as “useless paperwork” then skip it; there are other indicators you can use. But stats are a tried and true method.

This is your life

I got the idea to write this after realizing that yet another close relationship would soon be coming to an end. The original idea was sort of flippant. “It makes sense in theory, but no one actually handles relationships this way, right?”

But when I looked up Hubbard’s advice on this, then started writing down what I wanted to say, I got more serious. Girlfriends and people like that are important. Relationships can make a huge difference in a person’s life. They are really very fundamental. So it is worth studying, worth thinking about. But more than that, it is worth doing.

If anyone who reads this gets anything out of this, I hope it will help them decide to make friends with someone if they feel alone, or encourage them to repair a relationship that fell apart. Be a friend to yourself and let yourself have close friends. It can be a very emotional experience. But if you are sincere in what you are trying to do, then all those confusing feelings will be worth it. After all, why are you here? If you don’t like strong emotions, why did you pick life on Earth? Let the tears fall! Let the joy of love overwhelm you! After all, that’s kinda what we’re here for, isn’t it?


26 September 2020

Dichotomy: A division into two, where the two are sharply different or opposed.

Dichotomies are common in human language and thought. They are a kind of simplification of real situations that allow us to communicate without excessive verbal nuance. In common experience we have dichotomies like cold/hot, sick/well, low/high. We recognize that there are degrees between these extremes. We use a few modifying words to communicate this: more/less, many/few, etc. This can also be done in a more technical way using a continuous scale (or spectrum) as we do with measurements like temperature and time.

If you study Scientology you will run across a scale that goes between -40 and +40. This is one way we have to express a spectrum of values between two extremes.

False dichotomies

We use and experience a lot of different dichotomies. When any of these are used in ways that really don’t make sense, you get a false or deceptive dichotomy. This often happens when someone is hoping to express an idea of superior versus inferior (a “vertical” dichotomy) using a dichotomy that can’t really be evaluated that way.

The perfect example of this is Left versus Right in politics. In the first place, this dichotomy obviously uses a horizontal metaphor. Secondly, these terms are often left inadequately defined. Thus, most attempts to convert this horizontal dichotomy into a vertical one use specious or circular arguments.

Other dichotomies that are essentially horizontal, at least in most contexts, and become false or useless with any attempt to convert them to a vertical (good/bad) meaning include:





There are many others. These are some we see in common use today. You might disagree with my proposition that these dichotomies are being misused, but I invite you to take a closer look. You may report your findings in the comments.

Basic vertical dichotomies

Even our most basic “vertical” dichotomies rely on a certain amount of social agreement, or context.

Good versus Bad (or Evil) has to be one of our most basic dichotomies. We can only pin down the meanings of these concepts in the context of, say, the game of human existence. There is broad agreement that this is a useful context, even though it is not the only one possible. For example, things might turn out a bit different if we shift the context to the entire biosphere.

In the context of the game of being human, most would agree that “good” would mean survival of that game, whereas “bad (evil)” would mean the end of that game. If someone wanted to kill all humans on Earth, that would be evil. If someone wanted to provide all mankind with a way to live happier and longer lives, that would be good.

Alive versus Dead is another important vertical dichotomy. Most agree that being “more alive” is better than being “less alive” or “dead.” Different contexts for this will be explored below.

Healthy versus Sick is a very popular dichotomy these days. This is in some sense of subset of the Alive versus Dead dichotomy. This will also be explored further below.

Important dichotomies hidden by a lack of awareness

I would now like to explore some additional dichotomies that I use a lot in my writing that are not encountered as much in popular culture.

These important dichotomies have been hidden from us by our lack of awareness of what we really are – immortal spiritual beings – which awareness has been suppressed. (It can’t be totally blocked, as it is too innate to life.)

This awareness may become more real through recall of a past life, or by running into someone else who has done this. There are other ways to elevate this awareness, but most of them are quite unpleasant or take years to develop.

From this basic awareness comes the realization that we also have a mind and the we are separable from both it and the body. It is much more difficult, however to separate from the mind, and most of use can live with it satisfactorily, particularly after doing a bit of “mental housekeeping.”

Another realization that has developed out of this is the Tone Scale. This is the scale that goes from -40 to +40 that I mentioned earlier.

In our technology, the full scale applies to the being separated from the body, and a subset of this scale, 0.0 to 4.0, applies to the being when it is with the body and “human.” These can be thought of as “aliveness” scales for beings and for humans.

In the human context (where body death is 0.0 and something we might call enthusiasm or “zest for life” is at 4.0) we get a scale of human emotions. A variety of related scales involving human attitudes on various subjects (such a politics) can also be derived.


This can also be seen as a scale of sanity. When I speak of “criminals” versus “honest people” I am using the human version of the scale. 2.0, at the center of this scale, is considered to be the make-break point in human life. At this point, the person is struggling. Below this point he is angry, then fearful, then immersed in a sense of loss, then apathetic, then dead. Above this point he becomes bored, then conservative, then interested, and then more and more cheerful.

Another overlooked dichotomy, which is applied mostly to individuals, is In Present Time versus Out of Present Time. This is important in spiritual technology. It is often referred to in social discourse with terms like “with it” and “out of it” or “aware” and “asleep.” It is a major factor in the mental phenomena commonly associated with psychological disorders.

There is another important dichotomy that gets thrown around a lot and deserves closer attention. This is Freedom versus Slavery. This only makes sense in the context of ethics; otherwise it becomes a false dichotomy. Freedom is good when it is used to do good. And slavery is bad when it is used to do bad.

On the human level, a free person is one who, though “trapped” in a body, is unfettered in most other ways and is personally happy and seeks to promote the happiness of others. And a slave is one who is not only trapped in a body but trapped by the fears that criminals can use to make him feel like his options are limited to choices that will only make things worse. He is often in constant fear, which all by itself shortens his life and renders him ineffective, unproductive, and lacking in alertness. An angry slave may seek to destroy his master, but may take many others with him. And a slave may select the wrong target for his antagonism.

As most of us understand life: Freedom is good and Slavery is Bad.

But a being can become “inverted” and begin to look at things the other way around.

Our current situation is an example of an inverted narrative striving to dominate our attention.

I don’t agree with the idea that we should let a disease convince us that slavery is better than freedom.

Stupid Rich Kids Go To College

24 September 2020

In March 2019, federal prosecutors publicly announced their investigation into a college admission scheme that led to criminal charges against more than 50 people—including parents, college and university coaches, and a founder of a for‑profit college counseling and preparation business—related to falsifying information to facilitate the admission of more than 30 students to more than 10 different universities.

California State Auditor report of September 2020

Two students identified in this investigation were admitted to the University of California (UC) system. And so it became the job of the California State Auditor, an independent state agency, to look into the UC admissions scene and see what they could find. They looked into admissions records for the years 2013 through 2019. They released their report this month.

The audits team dug up 64 additional cases indicating abuse of privilege in the admissions process.

According to the auditors, these unethical practices were made possible by “missing safeguards.”

The auditors were able to locate 42 admissions at UC Berkeley that could be documented as related to personal connections rather than academic ability. The other 22 inappropriate admissions were all done through athletic coaches.

…because of limitations in the evidence available for our review regarding the campuses’ admissions processes, there were likely more inappropriate admissions at the campuses than the 64 we describe in this report.

California State Auditor report of September 2020

The auditors also found no strict policies (criteria) regarding who gets admitted. This allows admissions staff to make allowances for students who don’t pass the initial screening process (“application review”). Beyond that, they found the application review process itself flawed and inconsistent. Recommendations depended too much on who was doing the review. Finally, the auditors found that the university President’s office seemed disinterested in promoting or insuring fairness and consistency in the admissions process.

It’s a Good Old Boys club.

My attitude about higher education

I didn’t read the whole report in detail.

I had walked away from this whole scene almost 50 years ago, after I looked at the choice of going to university and decided it wasn’t for me. I wrote off the system way back then as a snake pit, and never really saw any reason to upgrade that assessment.

But this issue is pertinent to our current scene. It provides more data points regarding the question of how criminals can gain a foothold in society and grow their influence.

And so, a few salient (protruding) points come to view:

  1. This investigation was carried out by an office that specializes in financial audits. This is a criminal matter, an issue of equal access to publicly-sponsored institutions of higher education, an issue of corruption in the ruling classes. But it was not treated so, and I can only guess that the Justice system will not get involved with it. We are relying on CPAs to perform a civil rights investigation!
  2. These violations are reported as a threat to our ideals of fairness, equity and diversity. This is disingenuous (deceitful). The higher education system is part of a culture that produces stratified, organized, production-oriented societies. This culture follows a pattern laid down millennia ago to cope with the challenges of survival in biological bodies. Even much simpler versions of the pattern can only tolerate so much fairness, equity and diversity. Though as spiritual beings we long for these things, biological life was not designed with these factors in mind. We attempt to maintain a tolerable balance between freedom and slavery; having biological bodies only makes this more difficult.
  3. These are public (not private) colleges. But they are behaving like private institutions.

Funding of public higher education

The first article I find on this topic was posted at on 26 February 2019. It reports that state government funding for public universities has dropped by $9 billion in the last ten years. Currently, about half of public university operating costs have to be covered by tuition. The article makes the point that the public is unaware of this situation, many believing that taxpayer spending on public higher education is increasing.

State spending on state universities fell by 16% (adjusted dollars) between 2008 and 2017. Only five states are spending more today. In 8 states, the cuts were much steeper.

According to the College Board, tuition has been rising since the late 1980s in a bumpy pattern related to the availability of taxpayer funding and increased student demand for a higher education.

An article at Inside Higher Ed notes that public universities become targets for budget cuts when states are under financial strain.

According to a 22 March 2017 article at 24/7 Wall St. institutions of higher education are increasingly relying on private and federal money to cover expenses and expand. Federal funding sources include Pell Grants ($31 billion in the 2014 academic year) and research grants from many federal agencies. These are of a similar amount to the tuition assistance funding, but much more concentrated in the big research universities and in particular, in medicine.

And so we see one clear connection to our current scene: Medicine.

Medicine and bodies

As alluded to in point 2 above, bodies are a key element in an ancient structure, or pattern, which seeks to balance the spiritual desire for freedom with management’s desire to maintain control. In a more “advanced” biology-based society, this control can be effected through the institution called Medicine.

Religion (superstition) government (force) and industry (technology) are more primitive forms of social control. In a sufficiently advanced society, Medicine (bio-psychology) can take over many aspects of this function. Beyond this we have the promise of advancements in spiritual development which could lead to a reversion to life without bodies. However, current ruling elites fear this possibility to the extent that they will take criminal actions to suppress any organized progress along this line.

I write of these things as though they are common knowledge. I realize that most see all this as some sort of belief system that probably isn’t true. If you are not part of the ruling elites, you most likely see this subject as curious, slightly disturbing, but basically harmless. If you are an “insider” in the elites, you are more likely to consider this subject as a dangerous truth which must be kept under very strict control.

Though spiritual development in its current form poses no particular threat, its disruptive potential is seen as vast and possibly fatal. The fact that ET groups have reached us that use this subject in ways that are frightening and at times hostile has led the ruling elites to believe that the subject needs to be developed for strategic purposes but otherwise kept secret.

This enrages persons like myself who see this as purely a matter of religious freedom. We are fully aware of past abuses and intend not to allow such to repeat. We also realize that the general public, including the elites, are mostly only subconsciously aware of these past abuses, and are therefore irrationally fearful of the subject.

Our work on Earth is largely as an unorganized and extremely diverse collection of individuals and small groups who have no common plan or strategy. We share an urge to somehow remedy the problem of the totally irrational fear and ignorance that surrounds these matters. A few are making noticeable progress, while others seem stalled or defeated.

Do stupid rich kids really matter?

Most of us don’t want stupid rich kids going to college just because their parents can use money and influence to get them in. But the fact is that even if the college admission process were squeaky clean, it would not make that big a difference. The ruling elites have many other ways to keep their ranks “pure.”

The best I can hope for is that a parallel system develops that uses a whole different approach to the future. This system would have to be based on real spiritual awareness and be informed by the mistakes made in our actual spiritual history. I don’t see that it can afford to raise its head and identify itself as an organized movement. But perhaps that isn’t necessary. Let it be known, however, that there is another “higher education” system seeking students. Long hours and terrible pay await its graduates. As does a real opportunity to enjoy life in a way that most of us have not for a very long time.