Wish you could just cry and start over?
Forget it all, be forgiven, and be loved like your parents loved you when you were a child?
Try googling “Gal Costa videos” and let the grand lady of Brazilian music take you away to a happy place where everything works out alright.
And if you would like to learn a tiny bit more about Scientology (or other things) without reading a whole book, I have made a page for you on my HTML site, and here it is (I hope this link stays good for a while!) Your page at Life Force Designs.